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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M, Multi
  Fandom:
      Ouran_High_School_Host_Club_-_All_Media_Types
  Relationship:
      Hitachiin_Hikaru/Hitachiin_Kaoru, Fujioka_Haruhi/Hitachiin_Hikaru/
      Hitachiin_Kaoru
  Character:
      Hitachiin_Kaoru, Hitachiin_Hikaru, Fujioka_Haruhi, Suoh_Tamaki
  Stats:
      Published: 2018-03-11 Chapters: 1/? Words: 5262
****** Ouran's Polyamorous Hosts ******
by Rumplerarry
Summary
     Kaoru and Hikaru start to realize that they have more intense
     feelings for each other than just platonic brother love. This is
     spurred after the date Hikaru has with Haruhi, it helps both brothers
     to realize that they are a little jealous of the idea of their twin
     dating someone. However they also feel very close to Haruhi,
     especially after she listens to Kaoru about his growing feelings
     towards Hikaru.
Notes
     I usually end up writing late into the night which means I sometimes
     get a few typos. Please forgive them! Thanks!
Hikaru’s date with Haruhi hadn’t been the most successful but it had definitely
had its moments. Hikaru had started to realize that it didn’t necessarily have
to be him and Kaoru against the world; maybe, just maybe it could be the three
of them against the world together. Haruhi was the only person, besides that
one maid, who had been able to tell them apart. That fact alone set Haruhi
apart from the rest of his world in his mind. Hikaru had also managed to learn
more about Haruhi on his date. Kaoru might have set it up, but Haruhi was happy
to be out with Hikaru regardless. However Hikaru had let his jealousy and other
feelings get the best of him and had then had to run back to comfort a
terrified Haruhi inside the church, seeing Haruhi like that had opened up
Hikaru’s eyes a little more. Other people had feelings, which Hikaru had always
known but now he was starting to care more about those feelings. And not just
with Haruhi but his brother Kaoru as well. Hikaru promised himself that he
would start paying better attention to the feelings of those around him.
Hikaru started working on that promise to himself once he finally returned home
that night. Kaoru was up waiting for him as always, a nervous look on his face.
Kaoru was lying on their bed, staring at a manga but not reading it when Hikaru
entered. Kaoru looked up at Hikaru, trying to read his brother’s emotions
before speaking.
“So,” Kaoru started gently, “I heard that you found Haruhi and were able to
comfort her through the storm. I am glad you were able to find her and help her
Hikaru, I really am. I am also sorry I tricked you into going on a date with
Haruhi…but I thought it would be good for you. I understand if you are upset
with me, but I hope that you can forgive me. I was just trying to help Nii-
san.” Kaoru finished speaking, watching his brother’s face uncertainly.
“I still feel bad for not understanding her feelings sooner…” Hikaru started as
he looked down at his feet, to ashamed to face his brother. “I got upset at
first thinking she only wanted to be on a date with you and that was why she
was acting so strange…and then I realized what was going on and I did
everything I could to find her. I can’t believe I left her alone like that. I
will have to remember her fear of thunderstorms from now on though, and maybe
between the two of us, we can help her stay comfortable in those situations
from now on. What do you think Kaoru? Also why did you set me up with her? Did
you plan on being sick today? If so, why Kaoru? I was beginning to think you
really liked Haruhi…” Hikaru finished letting his voice trail off.
Kaoru sighed a little at his brother’s questions before responding. “I agree
that with us being in the same class as her, as well as being in the Host Club
and just in general getting along well with Haruhi that we should do our best
to help her feel safe as often as possible. But at the same time we will have
to be cautious not to offend Tamaki as he might see it as us encroaching on his
“little girl”. Kaoru finished with a slight scoff on the word. He didn’t like
the way Tamaki treated Haruhi as his property but at the same time he wasn’t
sure he could do anything about it without causing more Tamaki drama in the
Club. Or drama between he and Hikaru, which was the last thing he wanted.
“Fair point about Tamaki, but if she were to choose to hang out with us, it’s
not like Tamaki owns her…she can make up her own mind. And we already hang out
with her a decent amount, if she decides to hang out with us more than that is
her choice. And if it leads to…ummm something else then the boss will just have
to deal. Also Haruhi can take him in a fight of words and probably get him to
back down with a well timed look, so I am not too worried about it.” Hikaru
finished feeling a blush spread across his face. It hadn’t slipped his mind
that Kaoru hadn’t answered his question about setting up a date with Haruhi.
“Yeah you are correct about Haruhi being able to control the boss and I agree
with you about Tamaki having to deal with it at some point.” Kaoru started off
slowly, noticing the blush on his brother’s face Kaoru decided to address
Hikaru’s questions. “It’s not necessarily that I like Haruhi in that way,
that’s not why I asked her out. I had planned to get sick all along; hoping
that you would agree to go in my place, because if you did I figured you could
patch things up with Haruhi. And I was right, though it took you a while to
warm up to her, I just wanted you to work on opening up to others and allowing
them to open up to you. I know you feel that you blew it for a little while,
but I also know that you apologizing and Haruhi forgiving you made a difference
in your relationship. As much as I would love for it to be the two of us
against the world together forever, we can’t continue to live that way. We need
to start opening up so I thought this date excursion would be a good place to
start. I am not sure how you feel about Haruhi, but I know that we both enjoy
her company and appreciate the fact that she can tell us apart. So I figured
that if you were going to let your guard down around anyone else, it would be
her. Please don’t be mad at me Hikaru, I just wanted to help.” Kaoru finished
speaking a pleading look on his face.
Hikaru stared at Kaoru, seeing the emotions on his face, and something inside
Hikaru broke a little. His internal walls fell down around Kaoru frequently but
right now they were shattered completely. Hikaru wasn’t sure he would be able
build his walls back up around Kaoru after this moment, but at that point in
time he didn’t care. Hikaru closed the space between Kaoru and himself quickly
and pulled his brother into a hug. Hikaru held his brother close to him, doing
his best to comfort Kaoru. Oddly though, hugging wasn’t enough for Hikaru, he
got the strange urge to kiss his brother’s cheek as he held Kaoru close to him.
Hikaru almost acted on his urge but stopped just an inch short of his goal,
realizing what he was about to do. Hikaru changed ideas and instead whispered
into Kaoru’s ear. “I am not mad at you Nii-san, I could never be mad at you, at
least not for long. You are my brother, and my best friend. I don’t care if we
grow apart but I will always need you, so I hope we will always be together in
some way, shape or form. And when it comes to Haruhi, I don’t really know how I
feel about her…but I like to hang out with her and I also find it comforting
that she can tell us apart. It helps me trust her, but I still have walls
around with her, she isn’t like you. With you Kaoru I never feel the need to
have walls and I guess that’s what scares me most about branching out, having
to take down my walls for more people.”
Kaoru started to relax a little inside his brother’s arms even though some of
what Hikaru was saying worried him and made him both happy and sad at the same
time. Kaoru was glad that Hikaru was starting to learn about other’s feelings
and that he wanted to trust Haruhi. But his insistence at needing Kaoru made
him a little on edge. Kaoru never wanted to leave or lose Hikaru either, but
did Hikaru feel the need as deeply as Kaoru felt it? “Well I want you to know
that you don’t need walls with me Hikaru, we have been together all our lives,
you don’t have to hide anything from me, and honestly I am not sure you could
if you wanted to.” Kaoru chuckled a little at that before continuing. “I am not
saying that we will always live together but I think we should enjoy living
together while we do, and as for Haruhi…I think you should start letting down
your walls with her. She has proven herself to be a good friend and to be
worthy of our trust. But don’t rush it and get worried. Open up at your own
pace, though keep in mind she will start opening up to you in return so you
have to pay attention.”
Hikaru chuckled a little as his brother stopped speaking. “Maybe someone could
give me lessons in paying attention…I definitely could use the practice.”
Hikaru hugged Kaoru tighter before letting go of his brother. Kaoru and
returned the hug enthusiastically and as they broke apart both of them felt
cold and alone. Hikaru felt a blush heating his face as he realized what he was
feeling and he looked away from Kaoru…but not before he thought he saw a blush
creeping up on Kaoru’s face as well. Hikaru headed to the bathroom to get ready
for bed, he was exhausted after the day’s events and knew he needed sleep to be
in a decent enough mood to actually apologize to Arai the next day.
Kaoru felt his face heat up and as his brother headed towards the bathroom,
Kaoru gently pressed a hand to his face. It was definitely a little warm, but
why was he blushing? It was natural to feel the lack of warmth after a hug is
broken…nothing weird about that. Kaoru changed into his pjs and then headed
into the bathroom he and Hikaru shared, Hikaru nearly walked into Kaoru on his
way out of the bathroom and the two of them did a funny little dance about who
was going which way. They laughed at themselves and some of the tension between
them melted away.
“Hurry to bed Kaoru, yeah?” Hikaru said as he headed to the bed they shared.
Kaoru murmured he would and Hikaru got into bed and made himself comfortable,
knowing that Kaoru would turn off the lights before he got into bed.
Kaoru took his time brushing his teeth, replaying those words in his head.
Usually since their shared a bed the brothers went to bed at or around the same
time. But rarely did one of them ask the other to hurry to bed…it seemed like
more than just Hikaru being tired. The way he had said it, triggered something
in Kaoru’s mind, a feeling that maybe their relationship was changing somehow.
Kaoru thought about it and swore he thought earlier that Hikaru was going to
kiss him as they were hugging. He hadn’t been sure then how that made him feel.
Now that he thought more about it however, Kaoru felt a little excited by the
idea of kissing his brother, or being kissed by him. They did the whole
“Brotherly Love” act all the time in the Host Club, what if one day it was no
longer an act? What if it became their new reality? Kaoru finished brushing his
teeth and otherwise getting ready for bed and checked himself in the bathroom
mirror. His face had become flushed again, probably due to the thought of
potentially kissing his brother. Kaoru splashed some water on his face, dried
off and walked back to their bedroom.
Hikaru was snuggled into the covers on “his” side of the bed, they usually
started off falling asleep on their own sides, but sometime in the night their
bodies would migrate to each other and end up intertwined. It was something
that neither brother seemed to mind, but now Kaoru felt himself hoping that it
would happen again that night. Or…maybe Kaoru wanted to start off with both of
them in the middle of the bed. Kaoru stared at his brother lying inside the
warm covers for a few minutes, drinking in the adorable sight before him.
Hikaru turned to look at Kaoru, wondering what was taking him so long to find
his brother staring at him.
“See something you like Nii-san?” Hikaru asked Kaoru with a smirk.
Kaoru shook himself slightly and headed over to the bed, hitting the lights as
he walked. Kaoru hoped that the lights shut off in time to hide most of the
blush he felt spreading to his cheeks yet again. Hikaru was really getting to
him for some reason tonight and Kaoru wasn’t sure how to deal with that. Kaoru
climbed into bed, wrapped himself up in the blanket, and moved his pillow
towards the center of the bed. There he turned onto his side to face his
brother, not sure if he should reach out to Hikaru or not. Hikaru rolled over
to face Kaoru almost as if he could feel his brother staring at him.
“So are we sleeping in the center of the bed now Kaoru?” Hikaru asked, his
voice dripping with curiosity.
“Well, umm it’s been a long and rather intense day, I thought the closeness
might be nice. But if you don’t want me here I can move…” Kaoru answered as he
started to move his pillow back to “his” side.
Kaoru had barely started to move however when Hikaru’s hand grabbed Kaoru’s
pillow and held it in place. Kaoru stared at Hikaru, wishing that he could see
his brother’s face better in the darkness. Kaoru would have given anything to
be able to read Hikaru’s mind in that moment. Hikaru whispered “No Kaoru,
stay…”
Kaoru nodded in response and then remembered that Hikaru probably couldn’t see
that so he said, “Ok Hikaru, I will stay here, with you.”
Hikaru sighed in relief and moved the hand that held the pillow down to find
Kaoru’s hand, while Hikaru’s other hand moved his pillow towards Kaoru. Kaoru’s
hand twitched slightly as Hikaru’s hand found his, but he didn’t pull away.
Kaoru didn’t want to pull away; his heart however, was pounding in his chest.
What could this mean? This hadn’t really happened before today, so Kaoru wasn’t
sure what to make of this new feeling. This electricity he seemed to feel
whenever Hikaru touched him now, was this just because Hikaru was debating
opening up to other people? Was this Kaoru’s way of coping, to feel more
attached to his brother? Or was he somehow finding his brother…attractive? Was
that possible? Kaoru didn’t know but he squeezed Hikaru’s hand, and tried to
focus on his breathing, hoping it would help him fall asleep even though his
body felt wide awake, especially where Hikaru’s had held his.
Hikaru squeezed Kaoru’s hand in return and felt his breath leave him a little
when Kaoru squeezed back. He was getting a weird sensation from their joined
hands, but he couldn’t let go. Hikaru didn’t want to and even if he did, his
heart wouldn’t let him. Hikaru couldn’t understand what he was feeling and he
really wanted to know if Kaoru was feeling something similar, yet at the same
time Hikaru was terrified to hear the answer. He knew that Kaoru would hate it
if he found out, but Hikaru started to try to build a small mental wall as he
focused on his breathing and fell asleep. If he didn’t get a wall up Hikaru was
worried that he would kiss Kaoru soon, and that wasn’t right was it? Could they
do that? What would their friends say? What would Haruhi say? Didn’t both of
them kind of like her? There’s no way they could be together then. Granted
Hikaru hated the idea of Haruhi with Kaoru unless he was able to be with Kaoru
at the same time…come to think of it he wouldn’t mind being with both of them,
but that wasn’t possible, was it?
Both brothers fell into troubled sleep that was somehow deep at the same time.
They tossed and turned but at the same time neither of them woke up regardless
of how odd their sleeping positions got. The sound of Haruhi knocking at their
door woke them up. Kaoru had managed to roll onto his back at some point in the
night and so he woke up to find Hikaru on top of him. Seeing his brother on top
of him, only just starting to wake up, filled Kaoru with joy and love, so much
so that Kaoru gently pressed Hikaru into his chest in a hug. Hikaru stared at
Kaoru with a bemused expression before hugging his brother back. “Morning Nii-
san” Hikaru said before rolling off of Kaoru’s chest. Kaoru sighed at the loss
of his brother’s weight, but tried to play it off as a weird yawn, which wasn’t
really convincing.
“Hey are you two awake yet? We still have some work to do today.” Haruhi’s
voice reached them through the door. Hikaru and Kaoru burst into laughter at
the slight annoyance in her voice, both brothers could picture the face she was
giving them as well.
“We’re up Haruhi, don’t worry. We’ll be out soon ok? But you can come in and
talk to us while we get ready if you want. Kaoru finished with a laugh knowing
that it would get Haruhi to leave.
Haruhi snorted at him and said “Did you and Hikaru swap humors last night? Fine
I will leave you be but I will be back if you don’t hurry up. Good morning you
two.” The brothers collapsed into a fit of giggles as they heard Haruhi’s
footsteps retreat from their door. Both of them got up though and started to
get dressed. Usually neither of them paid much attention to what the other one
was doing, as they got ready. But this morning both brothers seemed to be on
high alert, it was as if they could feel it when their brother looked at them.
Hikaru and Kaoru both had to work hard not to stare at each other; worried they
would freak out the other if caught. After ten tense minutes, both Hikaru and
Kaoru were dressed and ready to get to work, well breakfast and then work.
“Morning sleepy heads!” Haruhi greeted them both with a happy smile, before
going back to work clearing up her dishes and those of the rest of the Host
Club. Tamaki was playing the piano and the other hosts were doing different
chores around the house. The twins sat down to their own breakfast, thanked
Haruhi and Misuzu for their food and then ate in relative silence. Everyone
around them was working and neither brother wanted to discuss their current
feelings this out in the open. It would have to wait until they were alone in
their room again.
Hikaru tried to use the silence to put some more bricks on his mental wall,
even though if he was honest with himself, he didn’t want to hide from Kaoru,
not anymore. But he was too scared to start the conversation with him,
especially when he didn’t really know what he was feeling yet. So instead of
coming clean right away Hikaru promised himself that he would talk about these
new feelings once he could understand what they meant. But for the rest of
their stay at the inn he wanted to play it cool and try to figure out what was
going on with him.
Kaoru felt that Hikaru might be feeling the same way he was, whatever that
meant. But Kaoru also didn’t want to try and bring up the subject on his own,
worried that he would make their relationship awkward. So for the next few
days, Hikaru and Kaoru slept closer to each other than usual, while acting a
little out of sync outside of sleeping. Haruhi ended up being an amazing buffer
between the to brothers, which they were both secretly grateful for. However
she could tell something was off between them and urged both of them to talk to
each other whenever she had them alone. Haruhi hated seeing them so out of
sync. Both Hikaru and Kaoru promised to talk about it once they got home, and
Haruhi agreed to let them be for a while, but she also promised that if this
didn’t get resolved soon after school started back up, that she was going to
have to force a twin intervention on them. Kaoru made a mental note to talk to
Haruhi about his feelings before they left to go home, he needed a soundboard,
and Haruhi was the only Host Club member he felt he could trust.
Their final day at the inn Kaoru got his chance to talk to Haruhi alone. He was
incredibly nervous but he needed to get this out. Maybe just expressing his
feelings aloud would help him to make sense of it all. Now his only struggle
was figuring out how to talk to Haruhi about his feelings. Should he come right
out and say he felt something new towards Hikaru? Or should he try to be subtle
about it? In the end Kaoru settled on a little bit of both. Haruhi had asked
for help making up some of the newly vacant rooms, and Kaoru jumped at the
chance to help her, hoping they could talk as they changed the sheets and such.
Kaoru took control of the laundry cart and followed Haruhi from room to room.
As they worked together in the first room, Kaoru slowly worked up his courage.
“Hey Haruhi, can I talk to you about something? It’s private and a little
embarrassing, but I really need someone to talk to, would you be willing to
listen?”
Haruhi stopped stripping the bed and looked Kaoru up and down before
responding. “Sure Kaoru, I will listen, if you are sure you wouldn’t rather
talk to Hikaru that is.”
At the mention of his brother’s name Kaoru felt his face flush slightly. He
swore he heard Haruhi make a noise of understanding as she went back to taking
off the sheets. Kaoru nearly lost his nerve, but focusing on the work at hand
helped him regain control of himself. “So there’s this person, who I have
always been really close to, and that has always seemed normal to me and felt
like enough. But lately, everything about our relationship feels different
somehow. Like a touch of their hand feels electric instead of normal and
comforting. I don’t know what to make of this new development. Especially
because of…ummm who it is, and I don’t want to come out and say who it is so
please don’t ask. But I don’t know what to do. Should I keep quiet about these
feelings I am starting to experience? Should I try to shut them out? Is there a
way to make sure the feelings are real and are different than what they used to
be? What would you do Haruhi?”
Haruhi looked at Kaoru closely before responding. “Well I won’t ask who it is,
though I have a feeling I might know who you are talking about. Now as for what
I would do, honestly I am not sure. I think that if you still aren’t sure how
you feel about this person you should find a way to be sure before you talk to
them. Have you umm tried thinking about them when you are…ummm aroused?” Haruhi
blushed at her own words and Kaoru felt his face heat up at the same time.
Kaoru looked at the ground and shook his head in answer to her question.
“I know this is awkward but if you think about that person and it helps you
ummm stay that way then it might help you understand how you truly feel about
them. As to keeping quiet about your feelings I wouldn’t. Maybe try the umm
thing I just suggested to help you better figure out you feelings, and then you
should talk to the person about it. I realize it sounds scary but I could be
there with you if you want? Or I could try to ask that person out? If they turn
me down then I could report that to you, and then maybe that would help you see
whom they are interested in. I don’t see them saying yes to me, or at least not
over you that is. I really don’t think you should shut out your feelings
towards this person regardless of what else you chose to do Kaoru. That in my
opinion will only make it worse, it could hurt your current relationship, and
you might crack under the pressure of it and do something you wouldn’t normally
do that could jeopardize your current relationship. I honestly think that you
should go ahead and tell them how you feel. They might surprise you and feel
the same way. But if you want someone there with you when you talk to them let
me know, I will gladly come with you or you could come talk to me after you
talk to them. What do you think Kaoru? I am here for you, I really am.” Haruhi
said looking at Kaoru with concern over her features.
Kaoru started to put the clean blankets on the bed as he thought about
everything Haruhi had said. The more he thought about it the more sense her
words made even though the idea of trying to think about his twin brother while
aroused made him feel a little nervous yet oddly not really ashamed. Even
though Kaoru was really nervous about eventually talking to Hikaru about all of
this, he was glad to know that Haruhi would be there for him regardless of what
happened.
“Ok Haruhi, I think I know what I am going to do. Would you be willing to come
over to umm my house at some point after school when we get back? I will text
you to let you know when I plan to have the conversation with the person, and
then you could come over in like thirty minutes? I could even send the
chauffeur to pick you up? What do you say Haruhi?” Kaoru looked at Haruhi
nervously.
“Well instead of doing all of that extra work…what if I just come home after
school one day with you and Hikaru? Then we could all just hang out and at some
point I could leave you two alone and come back in a little while. I can bring
my own homework to work on and goodness knows that your house is big enough for
the three of us to still have privacy. So pick a day and I will ride home with
you, ok? It’s not like I can’t do my schoolwork at your place just as easily as
mine.” Haruhi finished speaking with a shrug.
Kaoru stared at Haruhi in amazement. “How did you know I meant Hikaru? And
aren’t you disgusted to hear about my feelings for him? He is my twin after
all.”
Haruhi looked at Kaoru, and unable to help herself, pulled him into a quick hug
then released him before speaking. “Oh Kaoru, I am not disgusted by you. I
honestly can’t say I am surprised. Since you two have mostly been on your own
for your lives it makes sense that your love maps would essentially revolve
around in each other. It was only a matter of time before one or both of you
started to have more romantic feelings toward each other. Combine that with
your “brotherly love” routines in the Host Club I was beginning to think you
two were already involved romantically. I am sure a few of our guests might be
wondering that as well, of course since it’s taboo they would never admit to
it. Now as to the taboo of it all, you are both over the age of consent,
neither of you are abusive to each other nor could you bear children in this
relationship. That is the main concern usually when it comes to familial sexual
relationships because of the genetic repercussions the children could suffer.
But as guys can’t carry children you are in the clear there as well. So as long
as you both consent to your relationship and treat each other properly I don’t
see an issue with your relationship progressing into something more than
platonic love. But I also want to caution you to talk about this in detail with
Hikaru so that neither of you feel any guilt about it, or feel pressured into
it. Make sense Kaoru?” Haruhi finished speaking, looking earnestly at Kaoru,
hoping that she had helped him.
Kaoru stared at Haruhi in disbelief. He knew that she could be trusted and he
knew that she was a good friend. But to be this understanding of his feelings,
Kaoru couldn’t help but feel a little amazed. As he stared into Haruhi’s
understanding eyes, full of caring Kaoru started to think that maybe Haruhi and
he could be more than friends at some point as well. Kaoru shook the thought
away, he needed to sort out things with Hikaru before doing anything else and
it’s not like Haruhi, as open minded as she was, would be open to dating them
both if they got together. Kaoru allowed himself to entertain that idea for a
few minutes before responding to Haruhi.
“So sorry, my brain wandered there for a bit, lots of feelings swirling around
in there. But thank you so much Haruhi, for listening to me and for giving me
the courage to talk to Hikaru about how I feel. Would you be up for hanging out
with us after school the day we get back? Our parents will be away so if there
are any adverse reactions or shouting it won’t be a big deal. Do we have a deal
Haruhi?”
Haruhi chuckled at the formality of Kaoru’s statement but held out her hand to
seal the plan. “Sure thing Kaoru, now let’s get back to turning these rooms or
everyone will think we took a break. What do you say?”
Kaoru nodded at Haruhi and they got back to work on the rooms that needed
turning. The next morning the entire Host Club returned to their homes and got
ready for school to start back up the next day. Hikaru and Kaoru returned home
and slept in their shared bed as normal; Kaoru and Hikaru both only had a
little bit of trouble sleeping so close to each other. Yet they were both glad
to be home and to be able to go back to school so that life would seem a little
more normal again. Though with how Kaoru was feeling about his brother, there
was a good chance tonight would be the last time that things were truly
“normal” between the brothers for a while. Yet with Hikaru next to him sleeping
peacefully, Kaoru couldn’t allow himself to worry about it.
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